Late night thoughts

There was a time I thought I'll be alone forever. I prepared for the life of a singleton. Bought my own house with a guarded compound and services available, so I don't have to trouble people. Bought 2 insurances so I'll be protected should something happen to me in the future. I was trying to be independent, pretend I'm OK with being alone, thinking I'm going to be alone forever.

Thinking I'm not worthy of being loved and to love.

But Allah SWT is the best planner.

Sentiasa bersangka baik dengan Allah SWT.

He gifted me this man. This man who accepted me when I was 106kg. When I couldn't care less about the way I look. He accepted my flaws, my overthinking nature, my insecurities, my mood swings, my sudden outbursts of emotion.

He never tires to reassure me of his love. He's kind, soft-spoken, always treat me like an equal.

I don't have to wonder whether I'm a priority in his life. Because he tells me every day how important I am in his life.

For once, I'd love to know that someone is scared of losing me. Instead of just me worrying what I did wrong, what I could've done better.

I love being silly with him. We talk about the most random topics. He's smart. He's a thinker. He knows a lot. And it's refreshing to have intellectual conversations with my best friend.

Thank you Allah SWT. For giving me my better half. Finally I'm home.