OVER ME

I was crying alone at night.
Tears streaming down my face. I don’t know why.
Pigments of our memory were now tainted with the interruption of her.
Her solid being.
Her whims and fancy.
Her wants and needs.
I don’t know what you were thinking, choosing her over me.
I know I don’t deserve this.
I don’t deserve this kind of rejection.
I deserve to get all the things that she has.
I deserve to be loved and to love in return.
I deserved to be happy.
I deserved to smile.
I deserved to be wanted.
All I want was just to feel again.
To know what it feels like to have someone care for me.
Acknowledge my existence.
Know that I am alive and well.
That is all I ever wanted from you.