Saturday, May 15, 2010

CUKUP LAH

Cukup lah menunggu.

Kali ni aku nak pergi jauh dari mu.

Jauh dari ketidakadilan mu terhadap ku.

Jangan kau memanggil-manggil ku pulang semula kerana ku takkan berpaling pada mu lagi.

Sudah cukup kau menganaktirikan aku.

Sudah cukup kau tendang aku ke sana ke mari seperti bola yang sudah tiada angin.

Sudah tidak aman aku rasakan duduk di sini menanti penyeksaan mu yang tiada sudah.

Aku tak daya lagi.

Aku tak kuasa lagi.

Menunggu mu sampai esok malam dan malam lusa dan malam-malam seterusnya.

Aku juga punya malam-malam sendiri untuk bersama diriku.

Tanpa kau di sisiku.

Aku mengerti.

Aku undurkan diri.

Aku akan tiada di sisi mu seperti selalu.

Kau takkan rindukan aku.

Kerana kau tak pernah menyintai aku.

Monday, May 3, 2010

OVER ME

I was crying alone at night.
Tears streaming down my face. I don’t know why.
Pigments of our memory were now tainted with the interruption of her.
Her solid being.
Her whims and fancy.
Her wants and needs.
I don’t know what you were thinking, choosing her over me.
I know I don’t deserve this.
I don’t deserve this kind of rejection.
I deserve to get all the things that she has.
I deserve to be loved and to love in return.
I deserved to be happy.
I deserved to smile.
I deserved to be wanted.
All I want was just to feel again.
To know what it feels like to have someone care for me.
Acknowledge my existence.
Know that I am alive and well.
That is all I ever wanted from you.