WHY

it's another new year and things have been the same for me.
at times, that feelings of loneliness and depression creep over me, smothering me, until i feel like i am a single white dot on a black sea.
people move on, but i am still stagnant and alone.
they say the higher power is fair but all i felt was injustice being done on my part on on the parts of people that have been mean and dubious and will continue to do so given the right chance and opportunity.
they say, don't do to others what you don't want others to do to you.
i never break someone's heart. not that i know of. and not with an intention of doing so.
i gave my all in relationships but that was just not enough for people who have no value of my love and not worthy of my sacrifice.
before this, i would probably cry and lament on my shitty life and ask the most prominent question, why?
but now, i don't even have the strength to even pour out a single tear out of my eye for such a useless question.
they say if you listen really hard, you can actually hear the power above speaking.
but all i am listening is my own whining voice.
being ungrateful of what i have and longing for what i don't possess.
i started to think that karma and all that bullshit didn't really work.
bad people, screw ups like those scumbags get nothing in return for hurting me and being mean.
whereas, people with no ill intentions whatsoever get hit again and again, for what?
for doing nothing? for hurting nobody?
when is the world going to become a fair place?
a safe haven where people who are good are rewarded accordingly and people who are bad are punished for their bad deeds?
some people just weren't meant to be born.
with their birth into this world, they just keep hurting others and messing up other people's life.
these people should be exiled. you should not add them as friends on facebook.
still, there are still an ignorant few who seem oblivious to the true colour of a person.
still wrapped around in their little bubble of freakin' happiness.
bringing another person into this already cruel and lopsided world?
that is the true meaning of happiness?
if it is, that maybe i was meant to be alone and lonely after all.
and that is a destiny that is hard to swallow but impossible to spit either.
and that is the path that i have to tread.
and that is the future that i have to look forward to.

because the force above knows that i can handle it.
i am strong enough to filter all these negativity.
i am resilient enough to tolerant fake bitches and masquerading impostors.
i am the light that shine in the darkness.
i am the energy that keeps hope alive.
i am me, and that makes all the difference between a frail little human shit like you and me.

PURR.....

I've got 3 perfumes now :)

Yup...Katy Perry's Purr this time...

Cat!! All my perfume bottles are purple...

ALEXANDRE CHRISTIE..now I look like a Mak Datin :P

And it's shimmering, ring, ring......

Can I be a hand model??? hahaha...

Obligatory pose when showing off new watch :P

if only ppl know how much it hurts to pretend not to care.

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Technology, like SMS is not all bad. The reason is because SMS can be used to help people who are living with speech and hearing impairment to communicate with other people. I witnessed this when one of my relatives paid a visit to my house last night. He brought along his lovely wife, who are also in the same boat as him. Although the atmosphere was quiet and there was no laughter and chatters, still we (my mom, dad, them and me) were able to communicate using his phone and my phone by typing SMS as a medium of communication. A lot of people always blame SMS as they think that the short forms and the mixture of Malay Language and English used in SMS is the source of ‘Bahasa Rojak’; so much so that students tend to use the same language they type in SMS in their essays at school and in exams. Well, that is just one downside of SMS. And the technology is not to be blamed. Blame the people using the technology in excess njslegi rgiuergheriupgh gtriu

P/S: I have no idea what to write. Just the thought that “them” in the ramblings above looked so sweet together that I have to write a post about it. Or maybe that is just the hormone kicking in.

THEY THINK , BUT NOT ENOUG

They think they can boss you around to do things you don’t want to do.

They think they can shift the job they don’t want to do to you, just because they don’t feel like doing it, just because they pretend they don’t know how to do it, just because they have ‘commitments’, ‘commitments’ they deemed more important that your commitments.

They think they can put the blame on you. Since they already shift the job to you, if some cock-ups happen, well it’s not their responsibilities anymore. The guilt is on you.

They think you are easy to make fun of, just because you are silent and accept things coming your way, may it be pleasant or unpleasant things.

They think you don’t have a mind on your own, since you never speak up to the injustice done to you.

They think they can hop around in glee for being released from the burden on their shoulder, by putting the burden on your shoulder, because you, unlike other people have all the time in the world to deal with shenanigans by miscreants who are cane-proof.

They think they have won, when you just shrug it off and pretend not to be hurt by their stupid and silly comments on private parts of their body. When you never ever even think to look at them for more than what is necessary, let alone, to stare at them long enough to find things to comment about their body.

They think they can peek at your personal details and give their two cents worth of how you should manage your life.

They think, but not enough, to meddle in other people’s private and personal business, private and confidential matters as well as little secrets that wasn’t meant for the public.

They think, but not enough.

PRAYERS FOR THE LITTLE GIRL.

i would have posted the picture or video, but i just don't have the heart to do it.

FUCK these ignorant bastards.

Hope Yue Yue lives when HUMANITY dies.