Immaturity

So right now I'm attending Majlis Penutup Orientasi Tingkatan 4.

When you get to school, especially secondary school, the amount of ridiculousness that you've to suffer is insurmountable.

Take for example, during the event itself, some assholes at the back keep jeering and making pig noises for every slips that the MC made.

The Masters of Ceremony happen to be two girls because I'm pretty sure the boys are sackless to be speaking in front of the whole student body of Form 4. All they're good for is whistling playfully and never shut up when people are talking.

Even though they're already in Form 4, but their mentality is still stuck like a four year old. Trying to purposely sabotage the event by disrespecting the guest of honor who is the Senior Assistant of Administration.

Seriously, these people would grow up to be douchebags. Maybe they could open up a membership club for International Douchebags alike. These people, especially those who are quick to judge people who made mistakes by laughing out loud, for instance, when the MC said something wrong, will grow up being insignificant little pests who never achieve anything in life simply because they're too afraid to try something for fear being laughed at. The same goes to students who never respect others. They will grow up being angry because nobody respects them in return.

The truth is, I'm afraid of raising up kids for the phobia that I'll not be able to educate them and turn them into human beings. It's a scary and huge responsibility to be turning little humans to some resemblance of civilized human beings. And I'm no saint. And they say that the children are the mirror image of their parents. I don't want my kids to grow up feeling unwanted, ugly, stupid, not worthy of love and depressed all the time. I don't want them to be fooled by manipulative psychopath who are just after their money or intelligence. And I don't want them to grow up feeling inadequate and deserve nothing less than what they are entitled for. And of course, I don't want them to get hurt either physically, emotionally or mentally.

Maybe I am better off alone after all.